Some of you may have a hard time believing what I’ve just done. I’m having a hard time believing it myself, the more I think about it. SL’s about interaction for me, about meeting people and making friends, something I have trouble with IRL (But I’m getting better!). That’s why I’m having the hardest time believing I did it… and that I had so much fun doing it.
You see, I recently read a story… called Eudeamon, same one Lex posted about. I won’t spoil it for you, if you want to know more, read it. You’ll get the gist of one of the aspects of it anyway,form this post. It’s a great story, very powerful, so much so I almost didn’t finish…
Anyway, back to this post… you see, I made an Isolation Suit. You can see a picture of it to the left. For those of you familiar with Marine’s Real Restraints and the Restrained Life viewer, here’s the rundown:
Blindfold: This may seem odd, but that hood doesn’t actually block sight… it has other functionality I’ll explain later. The blindfold is actually one of Dari’s blindfolds in yummy leather, but I replaced her scripts with scripts from Marine’s blindfold, so I’d have access to blurry settings, as well as use with Restrained Life (i.e. no detaching when locked)
Gag: Nope, the hood doesn’t gag either. The gag is one of Marine’s ballgags, with Chat and IM blocking scripts for Restrained Life.
Hood: The hood is something special. It’s one of Lycia’s, with the default scripts pulled out and replaced with scripts salvaged from one of Marine’s leg straps. I’m loving Marine’s scripts, they are very versitile, and modular: leaving out a single scripts left me with a simple “lock” option instead of the normal poses usually used with the straps. Anyway, the hoods function is simple: It includes the no recieve chat / IM scripts in it. Any incoming IMs are blocked, and most standard chat (it lets in short emotes, and cuts off longer ones). My virtual self is quite deaf in it.
Collar: Serious Shackles collar, with the Restrained Life viewer script.
Armbinder: This is a KDC armbinder, probably the best looking armbinder I’ve found yet in SL. As with my hood, I grabbed Marine’s scripts and put them in, this time from a pair of handcuffs. It has all the functionality of the handcuffs minus the poses, so I can be blocked from interacting and all with it 🙂
Gloves: Mostly cosmetic, since the arm binder actually blocked interaction.
I’ve gone and put RR scripts in them anyway (I love Marine’s scripts ^.^), but they weren’t in at the time the pic was taken.
Legirons: From the Serious Shackles from Marine, with teleport blocking.
Ballet Boots: Okay, I didn’t need these, but what screams “FETISH BONDAGE RESTRAINT” louder than ballet boots? (maybe latex…). I’m gonna put RR scripts in these too *giggle*
It was a little work. It started with just Marine’s shackles, not an armbinder, and that’s what I wore in the trial run the night before (I couldn’t sleep, so I read the rest of Eudeamon while testing my iso suit :P)
It was…. surreal. I was in another world, only allowed access to SL through a dim haze… I could not hear, I could not interact, I could barely speak. I could only watch. It was an odd mixture of apprehension and excitement, fear and arousal. I honestly don’t have words to explain it… I don’t think there is any describing it adequately.
The next day Lex and I were hanging out. I had told her of course, being my best sis (*grin* *huggle*). She was a little jealous, but fearful of trying herself. We had popped over to Marine’s shop, kinda hoping to get a look at Sophia, an actual SL bane and beta tester of a SL bane suit (see Marine’s blog). I started playing with my armbinder, adding the scripts to it. One thing led to another… And I eventually let her lock me in the entirety of my iso suit. I only had contact with her. Anyone else who IMed me got a warning back, any IMs I sent were blocked. I even let Lex give me a number, like in the story: V-4275, which she kept referring to me as. I was alone, Lex being my only outside connection… I was isolated… banished.
Why did I do it? For one, to be perfectly honest… I’ve been pretty lonely the past week or so… You see, my Mistress, Jasmyn, has had a busy work schedule, and hasn’t had much time. We get a few hours together a week at most, it seems. Even Master Darryl hasn’t been on much; he’s been pretty busy and tired too. So, I’ve had nobody to take care of me… That can be hard, for a subbie.
As an aside, Mistress, if you read this, I love you sooooo much! I miss you terribly…
So, I’ve been lonely for one, and aching for attention. Second, I trust Lex, more than I trust anyone else in SL I think. She’s been my closest confidant and best friend, especially since Mistress has been absent. Spend some time with only Lex to chat with? I can live with that 🙂
Thirdly… it excites me. I cant’ explain why, but if you’ve ever had a fetish like this, you know what I mean. This may seem odd to those that know me; the girl that goes beserk whenever she’s locked in a cage for too long, or blindfolded AT ALL. I can’t explain it, I really can’t.
All I know is I had the time of my life.
All in all, I was in for five hours, give or take. It didn’t seem like five; Lex actually offered to let me out if I could guess how long I was in, and I guessed nearly an hour less than my actual time. I didn’t know Lex would let me out when she did. She had even hinted keeping me like that for a week, then later teasing me about making my release be my Christmas present!!! locked away until the 24th?! But you know what? Last night… I was prepared to do it. I was fully prepared to stay as long as Lex wanted. I did want out… kinda. But I didn’t want to decide when it was time to stop.
You see, I discovered something about myself. For me, what excites me about bondage is the loss of control. To be led around, controlled… not entirely without my consent, but not with my direct permission either. And in my suit, all control was taken from me. I could not speak, I was blocked from teleporting… I was allowed to wanter, but if Lex decided to leash me, even that could be taken from me. I was truly and completely stuck… and I loved it.
Lex… thank you. Thank you so much for giving this to me. I feel closer to you now than I ever have… I love you so much sis. I hope your turn comes soon.