Well tonight I passed the a “magical” point for me .. I have now been locked up and basically isolated from the world for a hundred hours!! Locked away in the dark, unable to hear, unable to speak unable to talk to friends in IM’s or even listen to IM’s.
Not bad going for someone who came into SL and didn’t like to be locked up for long periods of time. *giggles* I mean 30 minutes! it’s a lot! 
(okay, was a lot)
The only connection with the outside world is currently group IM’s. And I guess that once Loom Kish gets around releasing Restrained Life 1.11.5 for Linux, *that* particularly part will also be cut off.
And you know, despite the fact that my world is basically black and despite that the only person in world I talk to is Mistress, it’s okay. I am not even bored! I am calm and happy and actually relaxed.
Yesterday I ran across a blog by Pu571’s called “becoming nothing” where she among others talks about bondage scenes becoming boring and repetive, and the power of being isolated:
there is one exception to this . that’s when, counter-intuitively, boredom IS the fetish. dull fun.
this is what is means to be a mannequin, statue, furniture or other objectified item.
being left to stand in place, being commanded not to move, speak, or think, can’t become boring in the same way as other exciting fantasies. or rather, it can, but if there is even a tiny spark of excitement remaining when involved in the scene, the boredom actually becomes a trigger for increasing pleasure.
And I so agree with it. To be in that kind of state, to become really that dependent for contact in a world where social interaction is key, to be come that completly and devotedly focussed on one person, to just be there, just being ready and waiting for Mistress, to be hers to do as she pleases, it’s a mind trip all right. I have no idea how long I am going to be locked up like this, maybe .. even *IF* I ever get released?
Who knows?
Who cares?
it’s really not in my hands any more.
I am happy,
I am hers
xx
lexi
