Day six started off feeling slightly better and deciding that I would try not to let emotions jump me again. After camping in my usual spot in Deitide, I ran into a friend, who tried to talk to me. I am sure she was told before that I couldn’t hear her talking. As I am unable to communicate, I had to deal with her “sense of humour”. I suppose under normal circumstances I could have dealt with it, perhaps even see a funny side into it.
However sadly enough it wasn’t meant to stop there. Someone who had drunk to much, and thought it was fun enough to push me around into the direction of a cage. I managed to evade her for a while. Luckily Llyenera popped into the sim and provided some comfort. But even when she was asked to stop, she didn’t. And it was, it was too much. It became clear that this wasn’t in a way just a little fun, but a seriously, oh lets pick on you, because I can. It just became to much. Llyenera was finally being able to hold her at bay for me to get some rest, however I still remained rather weary.
By that time, Mistress popped online as well, as I think I never seen her so furious. If I ever need a vivid image for “the oncoming storm” or “devine wrath” (*grins* she’s awesome at kicking ass) I know what it is. After assessing the situation, she headed home quickly and teleported both me and Llyenera out of there.
We had a couple of options left at that moment:
- Wait for a bit and put me back in Deitide and hope that the episode is not repeated.
- Find another sim and put me there and continue.
- End the isolation now.
Mistress and I discussed at that moment. Basically it came down to this, Option one was thrown straight out of the window. However two was a possibility, but three was chosen. Mistress was already leaning towards this and tonights episode pretty much cinched the deal. I must somewhat admit despite my evident struggles being alone and being bored, part of me wanted to go on. If nothing else, than to make it a full week inside the suit.
At the same time, the last six weeks have been more intense then anything I have done in Second Life up to date. She quickly unlocked all the keys, and even for a moment, it really did not register much that I could take them off. So used to be dependent on her and the control she provided while I was in the suit.
Slowly we stripped off the different layers of the suit and finally the latex under clothing and for the first time in days, I was able to see myself again. It was a strange sensation. Even talking normally felt really weird. I kept talking in very short sentences.
I quickly changed into my most favourite lounge outfit and crashed on to the carpet into Mistress arms while we happy lay down and snuggling. As I expected it was pretty emotional to be .. well .. to be normal again.
On the picture of the right there is a little impromptu gathering at our place, Llyenera (Velicia’s Alt Elf with the cute aquatic dragon Sythrella, and Vannesh, who popped in briefly before a Christmas party / event she was throwing.
Right now, I feel completely drained due to the emotions and glad to be back home. I am at the moment bouncing between being glad I am out of there, to wanting to be in there, from ssad, to feeling numb, to being overly emotional, to being overjoyed at being home and doing simple things as sitting down again.
For now I just want to relax, spend loads of time cuddling, and spending time with my friends, cause even though I choose to undergo this, I did miss you all an awful lot, and pick up my life and go back to being me again. I want to thank everyone for coming to visit me in Deitide, for understanding, for being there for me and their kind words and gestures of affection, reading both my blogs and leaving comments. You’re support is much much appreciated and has been more valuable than you can imagine.
More later…
xx
Lexi (formerly known as L-8746)
Read: Isolation day 0, Isolation day 1, Isolation day 2, isolation day 3, isolation day 4, isolation day 5, …
ADD: there will be one more blog to follow after this, called “Isolation – The Aftermath”, however that one for now, I may lay to rest for a little while, while my mind churns over the events in the last couple of days.
I’m glad, that you a free now, so I could talk to you, and you could give me a number. I’m sad, that there will no more blogs will be with isolation.
Hope you all will perhaps help me find to create my own iso suit.
greetings
Joa
Its good to have you back Lex!
While we all know what you have been through was by choice, there was bound to be some ups and downs. You needed to go on this journey, for yourself, and for Miss Thalia. However, with great restriction, comes great freedom and release – now is the time you realise just what you have!
The next few days will be a bit of a rollercoaster, enjoy the highs, but be sure to catch yourself during the lows.
Hugs
Xon xxx
[...] now I am really drained due to various circumstances. For now I just want to relax, spend loads of time cuddling, and spending time with my friends, [...]
Joa, I am sure there will be more blogs dealing with isolation. It’s something that really speaks to both me, Velicia and Thalia. Plus there is at least still one other blog in the pipeline.
So while I maybe a little bit more quiet, I am sure that I will try and keep up and post other things.
lexi
I’m just glad I bought that staff, it was kinda cool using it for the first time. A pity it couldn’t be under better circumstances. Some people are just assholes. (And need to watch their backs now that Lexi is out *evil grin*)
I just want to echo how difficult iso is to anyone reading. It’s not only difficult for the person isolated, but also for her friends… There were times that had me wondering if I wasn’t taking this harder than Lex was. If you’re thinking about doing something like this, keep in mind the effects it’s going to have.
Speaking of rude, drunken people. Should the person in question be reading this know that I am far from done with you.
I want to thank you Vel for looking out for Lex, if you hadn’t been there I would have been beside myself with grief. I owe you a great debt.
To mirror Vel’s and Lex’s statements, the iso suit is a difficult thing for everyone involved. Even though I could communicate with Lex it was hard for me to watch her unable to express herself to others effectively. I don’t think the iso suit is gone for good, but I think in the future we will have to come up with ways to keep Lex safe.
[...] I missed her very much, Lex was freed from the iso suit. The details of this can be found in the subbieunion blog. Suffice it to say that I am very happy to have her out and I think I will have to spend lots [...]
It’s was enjoyable tracking this blog, before beginning to embark on my own similar experience.
I haven’t quite achieved 6 days yet, having been isolated completey in SL for around 5 days so far.
It does become difficult. Emotionally draining, but it’s possible to draw strength from the one point of contact remaining, to maintain a sense of focus.
I totally agree with you there, yes it became difficult. And yes, the amount of strength I drew from the close contact I daily had with Mistress made it doable.
Talking to her and listening to talk to others (amazing what things you can puzzle together from half sentences), made it doable for me, although as we both started to notice it started to become harder for me to tune myself into the conversation.