Well day three has come and gone and I must admit, that today was a bit harder than the previous two days. It really is sinking in that, yes I might be in here for a lot longer than I originally thought I would be. And not only that. Realizing that you are literally trapped in a suit is a powerful feeling.
On the other hand it becomes easier just to observe. It used to bother me that people would ignore me, but now? If they are strangers and just walk on, I just shrug and move on. There is nothing to be gained by getting upset by something i can’t change myself. In fact, it becomes a bit of a blessing, it saves trying to explain to people what the hell is going on and why I can’t understand them. Even giving some clues as my profile, my picks sections and specially the blogs, seems for some people to be to hard to understand.
The evening tonight ended rather surreal. For one moment me and Thalia were alone at Deitide, and before I knew it, Niki, Vanni and Llyenera (Vel’s alt, a rather cute elf with a uhm spirited familiar called Sythellra) came by. Everyone sat around talking until Llyenera pulled out a harp and played some songs and it was just so surreal, me in my isolation suit, friends around me and not able to communicate, and the soft tones of a elven harp ….
To top it off for the night, two pictures.
On the left, me alone in my isolation suit
and on the right, me and V-4275 (Velicia).
As you can see apart from the height, there is not much you can tell who is who.
More tomorrow…
xx
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Read: Isolation day 0, Isolation day 1, Isolation day 2,…
It is odd when I am having a conversation with Lex and then someone starts talking to me, I know Lex can only see my part of the conversation and this often leads to her emoting “Lex wonders…”. At that point I will usually IM her and tell her what is going on. It really hits home to me that I am her only real means of knowing what is going on around her.
I love being with her and talking, often giving her the background to what is going on around us. Her dependence on me in that regard is somewhat exhilarating.
When everyone showed up it was entirely impromptu, and a bit surreal to see them popping in one after the other. I know that they have come to support Lex and that makes me happy to see our friends understand what we are doing.
The experiment continues and I hope to find you in good spirits tonight my love.
The only thing that I have to figure out, is why reading your blog regularly arouses wild destruction fantasies in me…