Isolation part deux (Lex)

Well seems that my Rezday came with the greatest present I could have hoped for. Mistress bought me a set of Serious Shackles from Real Restraint. Already in the possession of the full kit of police handcuffs, I have always doubted if I should buy the Serious Shackles. (Anyone who knows me, knows that me and making that kind of purchase decisions on a quick quick bases, is something that doesn’t really fit in the same universe.

With the Serious Shackles, there was the added bonus that is freed up my cuffs and leg irons, so that I could pry them apart for the scripts and work on fulfilling another hope of both Thalia and me: to create and assemble the iso-suit which Velicia happily put together and published a wonderful tutorial on.

After spending most of the night tinkering with the scripts and getting a much better understanding of how everything fits together, I got an additional rezday present by Xe DuCasse, to complete the suit. I finally had to do the wise thing however and put the work down and finish it today. Being tired and moving around scripts is an excellent way to loose stuff.

But this afternoon, I finally managed to get the last bits put together and Vel gave me her Rezday present: The KDC Arm binder. After resizing it as best as I could (it’s a pain being a smallish avi, with a less that standard size .. even in Second Life). And After checking and double checking all the scripts I set all my RealKeys to the same password. Then came the big moment as for the first time I ever I started to wear all the pieces one by one. Mind you I didn’t lock them….

A powerful wave of feelings washed over me. For a moment I wasn’t sure if I should take it all over and take off running, lock it all and wait for the things to come, or take it off and wait for Mistress to arrive so I could show it to her then. Whatever the outcome was, I knew once I was in the suit, and Mistress had the key …I would be locked in. Finally I gave in to my weaker side and took the suit off.

When Mistress came online, it indeed wasn’t very long that I offered to show her the suit. Her reaction was “I thought you were never gonna say it”. I think there is a pattern emerging where I get myself in much much more trouble and all Mistress has to do is to sit there and nudge me into the right direction and sit there and play with my mind. Heck even when gagged I don’t shut up!!

I think that when I was in the suit, we set about discovering how to maximize it’s effects. One of the things, if ofcourse setting the gag nice and tight and as I suggested (note; pattern emerging): to hide the timers. And above all: As I pointed out to Mistress, being in an iso suit it shouldn’t be up to me in any way shape of form to decide if and when I get out. In a sense, I just want to *be* and to experience it. I may despair, I may love it. So far so good I am enjoying the experience.

Although with Mistress leaving for the night and Vel signing off as well, I am now really cut off from any kind of support network. I am starting to understand what it means to be in this and to be alone. There is little way people can communicate with me. (There are ways which people have discovered and which I knew about). And yes I am thankful for the concern people have showed me so far and if was great meeting someone who enjoyed and was inspired by reading our blogs (Thanks!! you know who you are!).

My mind is divided about this though. I love the brief glimpse of contact but it also interrupt being with myself in that sense. And I guess it takes being away from the whole being isolated experience. I wonder if there would be a way that one can block passing items. And I know I have been guilty of passing notes. Guess that counts a bit as protocol violations huh? *grins*

So I guess from tomorrow, I am not gonna communicate but be exactly that, Isolated. I might communicate as possible with in the constraints of the iso suit (short emotes and all), but frankly, I am going to be more than happy to float around and obeserve and just be. It was a hard call to make, but I think I will be better for it. It certainly will show me what it is like to be isolated and alone.

If I talk, it will be with Thalia, who is now my only link to the world. She is in that sense more than ever my custodian and my eudeamon. I hope to see you all when I get out (or if for that matter lol). And I will try to keep you all up to date with blog posts as I go through this.

Right now, I am in the Deitide Sim. Not really able to move around much. I can’t TP out, so I guess I’ll watch people do their thing while I observe while being quiet. So feel free to come up and say hi or wave or whatever. Just don’t expect me to discuss ‘War and Peace’ with you.. simply .. cause I can’t..

L-8746
(aka Lex)